this is a bad week. one of the worst. sometimes i find it so true not to gloat over the good life that i'm having or else it would turn horribly wrong. and that's what had just happen. not that my life was very good but i was contented. now i have a thorn stuck in my flesh and it doesn't seem like its going to be removed anytime soon so i got to live with it for a while.

that aside, its another hectic week. time always pass in a flash when i'm working in a bank especially as there are so many things to do. one minute ago its 9.00am and the next its 6.00pm. its ok to be 9.00am but its not ok to be 6.00pm with the in-tray still piled high with stuffs to be done.

i don't like carrying things un-done to the next day as it doesn't mean that the work will just disappear. it means i have more to do the next day. so i must well finished it then rolling it over.

i find life kinda un-fair sometimes too. sit-next-to-me-colleague is rather messy (a nice colleague la, i'm not like detesting him or whatsoever, just that i find that me being neat and meticulous has no rewards) so his desk has lots of papers scattered all over the place but mine being next to his is neat as a pin and such a stark contrast.

its not that i'm new and very free ok. even when i'm so so so busy, i always make it a point to keep it neat. i'm obsessed with neatness.

anyways, so when my bm walks over with some stuffs for sit-next-to-me-colleague to be done, see his desk like so messy = busy, see my desk so neat = nothing to do, pass the stuffs to me and ask me to help to do because he is busy. i wish i can just scream "NO LOR, I'M DAMN BUSY ALSO CAN! that's why i stay till 9pm to clear my work and this colleague leaves at 7pm for home sweet home."

not only my bm thinks so, everyone seems to think so can. *sighs*

i didn't even eat lunch today because i was swarmed with work but the sit-next-to-me-colleague went for his usual lunch can. so sad.

why am i being penalised with more work, other people's work some more, for being tidy. *sighs*

of course, i say "no prob, i can do." to my bm when his work was given to me. i'm not one to retort "i'm very busy now ok". i try what i can. i do what i can. its not that i'm hypocritcal here by saying things behind sit-next-to-me-colleague's back but i can't say "bm, no lor, sit-next-to-me-colleague is very free ok. he looks busy only because his table looks like a hurricane just went past it." not very friendly right. with me being new and all somemore. and maybe he is really busy at that point in time leh. =P oh well. maybe i should mess up my table real bad also. haa...

i've already nagged at sit-next-to-me-colleague to be less messy before we left office today but i must get it out of me and say it once again "sit-next-to-me-colleague, i'm really not against you nor don't want to help you when you are busy BUT i really appreciate if you can be neater and tidier please?"